Time is a gift

Give Yourself the Gift of Time

I’ve moved away from my quilting practice while much of my attention and time has been focused on building a studio out of my garage. Building, insulating, dry walling, cleaning, painting, carpentry, more cleaning, more painting, etching, more painting. Each day that I work on this mammoth project (and I acknowledge that it’s a small space, and that if you’ve done something like this before, or are a professional and do it every day, that it’s not “a big deal”),

 I get to say,

“I’m closer to being done than ever before!”

and that’s a good feeling.

"Closer to done than ever before!"
“Closer to done than ever before!”

When my neighbor thinks the project should move faster, and comes over to help , and ignores my role and instead focuses on my husband’s tool collection (which is both of ours) I get really annoyed and territorial and then I don’t want to get help from anyone anymore. Lots of folks have offered to help, but this studio really does feel like something I am making myself and don’t really want too many hands in the pot stirring. There are lots of skills I’ve learned to make this studio construction happen, and lots I’ve relied upon others to do for me or near me or with me. There are skills I didn’t learn, and perhaps missed the opportunity for,  but I’m not stressed about that.  I still have time.

“In order to hear your calling and answer it, you must generously give yourself the gift of time. It’s not how fast you make your dreams come true but how steadily you pursue it.” ~Sarah Ban Breathnach

This is a reassuring quote, which allows me the grace to work on my many projects at the pace that works for me, relief from the outside pressures of timelines imposed or supposed by those around me. For my quilt studio construction, I have had the generous support of my parents who recently moved to town, who are a steady workforce presence, but never a pressure. I have also been supported by the patient and loving attention of my immediate family who haven’t once vocally expressed annoyance of not having a living room, of losing the garage space or of being requested for ladder support or lugging assistance.

My work at present is not measured by money or time, but by an inner feeling of accomplishment. I’m turning a fuzzy vision into a clear reality and through that process, growing and learning.  I learn by doing much more than I learn by reading or watching.  It took me some time to figure that out, but I’m guessing I’m not alone.  In the study that came out recently about folks with business degrees getting less job placements than those with 5-year-old internship experiences, it seems that the business world values experience over book learning too.

I recently came home from the paint store where two different clerks asked about my project- they were genuinely interested, and glad to hear it was going well. One had advised me on a paint color choice and was happy to learn that I’d gone with the color he’d suggested.  I promised pictures, sometime in the future.  Again, I still have time. Once this project is done, my relationship with the local lumber store will shift.  I won’t be going in weekly to get the next bit of supplies- I’ll find a fabric store again, and develop a connection with them.  I am looking forward to that!

Fleury Lumber is the best!
Fleury Lumber is the best!

Taking my time in crafting my own cobbled together quilt studio out of my garage has been a generous gift.  It’s been a gift to my family, that I choose to make my studio close to home so that the precious window between 2pm and 4 pm I can be available to my young adolescents. It’s been a gift to my pets that they have companionship during the day, though they primarily sleep through the opportunity for snuggles and pets, the midday walk has been vital for our aging dog and reassuring to the more nervous of the two felines.  It’s been a gift to my parents, providing an opportunity for them to revive long ago skills of building and finishing a space, as well as an opportunity to work on a meaningful project side by side that wasn’t food or fitness based, yet still had active access points for all. Most of all, it’s been a gift to myself, in which I’ve been constantly learning. I challenged myself to research and ask questions, to approach and negotiate with officials and professionals, to figure out permits and licenses and rebates and grant supports.

Path of life sculpture garden, Windsor, VT, October 9th, 2010
image under creative common license through Chris L. but I lost the link. Sorry!

In the midst of this, I’m not sure that I’ve heard my calling yet.  I know that like to cut up beautiful fabric and sew it back together. I know that I enjoy showing others how I make my work. I know that if I keep making the work, it will keep improving and that I will continue to learn more about my form of expression and my aesthetic and/or voice will continue to emerge and be defined.  The business side of it- the having people pay for the sewn together fabric or the showing how to do it- the quilts and the teaching side of things- I’m still figuring that part out.  I know I do well at creating space for community, so perhaps simply starting by hosting sewing parties is the next best baby step for me to take.  Have any idea for names?  I seem to prefer alliteration because here’s the start of my list:

Simple Sew

Slow Sew

Silent Sew

Sing & Sew

Sibling Sew   (sew sisters/brothers)

Sirs who Sew  (men especially encouraged)

Silly Sew

Sip and Sew

Open Sew

 

Please add to the list by typing into the comments section below!

11 comments

  1. Shelby says:

    I like Felice’s proposal – “So, You Want to Sew?” and also “Simple Sew” ! The studio is looking great – love the paper lantern! And I think it is wonderful that it has been the labor of love and time…it will feel so much more meaningful to you at the end, than if you’d had workers come in and do it all in a weekend! Can’t wait to see the coming stages, when those walls start to fill with colorful fabric shelves.

  2. I loved reading about your labor of love and look forward to seeing the finished project–though not in any hurry, of course.
    A few more ideas:
    “Sowing New Sewers”
    “Singing Sewers”
    “Sipping and Sewing”

    • Ringmaster says:

      Though not in any hurry….love it! I’m actually starting to get little ancy finally. I have some puppet visitors in the space until the end of the month, so I am forced to do my last bit of “packing” for the big move to the studio next.

  3. Anonymous says:

    As I read you feelings of this project I realized that you are quite multi dimensional to say the least.
    You are gaining many years of experience in a relatively short time. This experience will stay with you that I am sure.
    If I can put my 2 cents in on the name
    So Sew came to mind I saw Felice was in a similar direction. I do believe names are very important you will be saying and seeing quite often. Enjoy the mission the fun is on its way !!!

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